2014 will always be thought of as my year of reconstruction.
2013 was the year of my personal hurricane.
In 2013, I discovered just how alone you can truly feel when a storm rolls through, and the walls are being ripped apart around you, shards of glass flying by, some striking right at your soul. I learned sometimes, the people you thought you could count on most, may add force to the storm, kicking in the windows around you, while others watch from the street and say nothing. That part may cause more bleeding than the actual wound.
But in 2014, I learned your true friends will show up, if not in the height of the storm, afterwards, to help you pick up the pieces you have left of your life, clean up the mess and make it beautiful again. I learned, though, some messes will need to be swept right out the door, while others, if you give them enough attention and elbow grease, can turn out to be beautiful blessings in disguise.
2014 was about rebuilding my ‘house’ that the storm tore apart.
The foundation is stronger now, no doubt. The bottom floor is nearly rebuilt, and I admit, it’s looking better and better each day. There are new windows and walls, which hopefully will stand up stronger to future storms. There’s no roof on this house yet, and some days I miss the protection I used to feel around me, but then I realize it was only imagined before anyway.
Rebuilding isn’t easy. It’s not something I even wanted to do when the storm first hit. And the looters still come around, thinking they can steal a piece of my life they don’t deserve. I’m not quiet about chasing them away anymore. I no longer bite my tongue when my heart, and home, are threatened.
I realized in the aftermath, there was a good home here before. And it can be a great home again, if it is rebuilt right.
I admit, there’s still a long way to go.
So, 2015 will bring more of that for me. A better house. A better me. Much more rebuilding.
And absolutely no regrets.
What do you hope for in 2015? Are you securing your foundation, or are your storms now behind you? Is there something you are you looking to rebuild?