Recently single, I was feeling pretty alone in life.
Sure, I had friends, but there’s a difference between having buddies to hang out with and having “your person”.
Hitting my 50s without a plus-one wasn’t the plan I always dreamed of, but I was determined to make the most of things in this new solo role.
I figured a good first step would be to take all the attention I’d previously poured into others in my life and pay more attention to myself.
So I signed up at a gym.
I know. Insert eye roll.
But with a broken heart, I felt anything but strong, at least emotionally. I figured I could at least work on the physical side of things.
So off I went to fill out the required membership forms, full of determination as I parked my car in the lot for the first time.
Older, and not in the best shape of my life, it was more than intimidating watching the other super-fit folks walk in for their various workouts.
I told myself I’d be looking like the rest of them in no time. Part of me even believed it.
Immediately, the cute 20-something gal at the front desk put me at ease. She sat with me going through the enrollment documents.
Name and address. Easy enough.
It stopped me cold.
I no longer had one of those. My family lived out of state. My friends were busy, with kids to raise and husbands at home. I didn’t want to put it on them to have to rush to my rescue if I passed out pushing it on a treadmill.
That simple line on the form was a punch to the gut.
Tears started to form in my eyes as the realization clicked that I really was alone.
But the sweet gal who was helping me fill out my forms didn’t miss a beat.
She saw the tears and quickly said she had me covered.
I was in disbelief. Was she really going to be so kind as to put her own name down on the form for me, after we just met?!
She had a different answer to fill in that glaring blank line.
She picked up her pen and for first name, she wrote Call.
Last name: Ambulance.
My new emergency contact was Call Ambulance.
And with that, I couldn’t help but laugh.
As alone as I felt, her simple answer for my having nobody was to remind me, we all have someone. Even if it’s just the rescue crew in the ambulance.